mental muscle

my shop is taking it out of me! i can't begin to explain what goes into opening a retail space! it
is so hectic, i've been through the full kaleidoscope of emotions, which changes in one day from hopeful, to worried, frantic, manic, despondent, frazzled and then exhausted. this is how every day for the last 4 weeks have been, with no apparent end in sight. my day starts at around 5.30am, when i check my emails, check online sales and auctions, and bid for items. i then help my child get ready for school, shower and take him to school. i then usually go to cape town to pick up some items of furniture or buy items from hardware stores, or meet with private sellers. if there's a market on, i then go to that. i check my emails again and pick my son up from school and make him lunch. then we go off again to my shop, try to envision what i need and we go off again to find things like packaging, fabric, ribbon, tissue paper, shop fittings and all those delightful details. i then usually remember an appointment that i've made with anyone from the credit card facility guy, through to the signage shop and rush to get to that in time. you can try and keep it simple but its impossible. i never knew it would test my character to open a shop. all i want to do is be in my shop now and listen to kate bush and elvis.
today i even felt like packing it all in.
but my friends always get me through it and tomorrow, i face another day, through the kaleidoscope.